Facebook told me that it’s World Mental Health Day today. My Instagram feed is filled with mental health awareness posts. I scrolled down my feed to read countless quotes like “Your illness doesn’t define you. Your strength and courage does.”, “It’s okay to not be okay.” and “Everything that you are is enough”. Despite the motivational boost, it was extremely demanding for me to muster the spirit to pen these words. It’s 9:31 PM right now and it took me all day to convince myself to write this post about something I’ve kept to myself since a very long time.
According to most Bengali moms, water is the solution to every problem in life. “Ammu, onek matha betha. Ajke school ey jabo nah.” “Dui glass paani kheye taratari ready hou.” “Ammu, I need to see a Dermatologist. My skin has been breaking out like crazy.” “Paani khao nah je! Amra chhoto belay eto paani khetam, tomader boyosh ey butter er moto skin chhilo.” “Ammu, ami A’ Levels ey Math drop korbo. I don’t get Math.”“How will you get it? Your brain doesn’t work properly because..” You guessed it right! “Ek fota o paani khao nah sharadin.”
I read something on the internet today. It quoted Will Smith, “Her happiness is not my responsibility. She should be happy and I should be happy individually. Then we come together and share our happiness. Giving someone the responsibility to make you happy when you can’t do it for yourself is selfish”. Now, I am not certain if it was actually Will Smith to say this but the quote left me wondering about the utter truth it spoke.
As I hung up the call with my friend (Let’s call her Kiki), I recollected the bittersweet memories of my wedding. I say bittersweet because for a very long time, I have deliberately forced myself to not recall the anxiety-ridden days of my wedding and yet, I have found myself smiling alone like an imbecile, reminiscing the most eventful days of my life. Weddings are different in every country and culture. In Bangladesh, weddings are kind of a big deal. So big, that it has a season of its own! Winter, that previously used to mean picnics, pithas and plush cardigans, has now become everything about holud rehearsals, Kachchi Biryani and dazzling lehengas. But hey, I ain’t complaining! Infact, I love weddings. I love dolling up and attending these events where the families put an astronomical amount of effort to make it a night to remember. I love everything about a wedding, unless it’s my own.
I am 5 feet and 1 inch tall. I weigh 45 kgs and have been so since the past 3 years. Since I hit puberty, the most I had weighed was 49 kgs. Never made it to the 50-mark! I have been denied to donate blood for a good cause for being underweight and been questioned if I should be allowed on a roller coaster because who knows? The wind might have just blown me away!
Do you find Mother’s Day overrated? I don’t. Yeah yeah, I know how some of you feel like it’s a well planned marketing scheme for the flower industry or that Mothers should be celebrated all year round but, be honest here, do we really do that? Do we actually go out of our ways everyday to make her feel special? In most cases, we don’t. So, go ahead and pamper your Mama Bear next Sunday (May 12, 2019) because she deserves all the love in the world!
If you are commencing your journey for Umrah, I would firstly like to congratulate you. I believe, there is nothing more peaceful for a Muslim to visit the Holy Kaaba and surrender to The Almighty. Rest assured that this experience is going to purify every inch of your being and refresh your mind and soul to the core. As I mentioned in my previous blog (Things to pack for Umrah – Women’s Edition), it is absolutely crucial for one to mentally prepare oneself before assembling other materials. I went an extra mile to delete all my social media apps from my phone and it only benefited me to not get derailed from my Ibaadah. 11 days of Social Media Detox turned out to be more relaxing than I expected. Umrah has been truly an experience of a lifetime for my husband and I, hence I want to save you some time and help you gear up for this wonderful Imaan-boosting journey.
Umrah, the soul-refreshing journey, is a dream to many Muslims. My latest trip to Mecca for my first ever Umrah has been truly life-changing for me. I have come back a different person, a person I am happier to be. This piece is for those who are willing to embark upon this journey of a lifetime in the near future. I really hope it helps you to get a clearer idea of how to prepare yourself for Umrah!
I used to have an Instagram account with the ID – Zaashabah which I decided to change into the IG account for my blog because of the ID name. Hence, I had to create another account for my personal use and naturally, I followed everyone from the previous account from my new personal account. The moment I sent out the follow requests, my inbox was flooded with the question above.
I’ve been contemplating on how to introduce myself to the world since the last five minutes, but then I realized, this is exactly what I DON’T want to do! I am here to speak my mind out; raw and unfiltered.